30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 14 - the Spirit

i swear, this blog is beginning to become a graveyard for posts that never quite make it to the net.  i have two that i am working on that are not yet done, and rather than finish them, i start another; afraid i will miss some important details.

and then, i fall asleep writing.  as i just did here.

so- just the highlights.  spiritual high today from this weekend. SO blessed. beyond blessed.  expectant for it to continue from this weekend through this week. patience and joy came; they were hard at times, but they came.

God's presence was all around us tonight.  i felt SUCH a sense of joy and of His excitement for what He is going to do tonight.  There was an outpouring of His spirit.

i'm literally falling asleep again so I must get this down.

as people were praying for the gift of the holy spirit, i continued to worship, and i felt like i was supposed to reach out and pray for the girl standing right in front of me.  so, reluctantly, stepped up a few feet, and leaned in to ask her if I could pray with her.  she eagerly agreed, and i just prayed according to the spirit for her.   i felt like maybe God was speaking "restoration," but, it wasn't very clear, and I didn't want it to be just me.  i sort of felt like, oh, well okay. i didn't get anything for her, nor do i know what i even prayed for.

at the end of the song, she turned around, bawling, to tell me thank you.  in that moment, i felt the Lord show me that He is working, even when I don't see the evidence.  all it took was a step in obedience; i didn't know why or for what, or even see the result at first.  but wow, he used WHATEVER it was i was praying for her, and he begun to work in her heart.

my spirit became broken for her, and i just began to speak out truth over her: that God delights in her so much, and that He longs to see her fully restored and her heart healed of any pain or suffering. That he wants to restore her to how he created her, and that he desires her wholeness even more than she does.

i could be wrong. she could think i am a kook. or, maybe, just maybe, i made a bold step in faith and have walked in obedience, all the while, being used by God as a minster of His heart.