two feet, one soul.

days like today remind me of the dichotomy of our souls to stand with one foot in the present world, and another in a world we were created for but remains unseen.  with much of the in's-and-out's of our day dedicated to the life we live here, at our temporal home, through our time spent investing in our work and careers, in our relationships and friendships, in creating a better world for ourselves, our neighbors, our sons and daughters and grandchildren.  yet, this is not the world we've been created for.  sure, it is our temporary home, and deserves our best.  this is our one-shot at this world, and leaving a mark on it for the glory of the Lord should be our ambition.

we are simply on our way home, to a kingdom of eternal glory that our souls have been personally created for.  as C.S. Lewis so popularly put it: You don't have a soul. You are a soul.  You have a body.  i'm reminded that our purpose here is to live with our future home in mind, as we exist within the realms of our current world.

so, perhaps unfortunately even, the parallel is always running through my heart and mind.  i always feel such a tension between investing in my home here in Nashville, which indeed, feels like home, and a future home elsewhere.  as i wrestle with the polarity of the two, i have a hard time finding complacency.  maybe this is a good thing, knowing we were always called to more. to greater.  but to that, the opposite is true in that i have a hard time finding contentment in just being, where i am, perhaps even that this is exactly where i am supposed to be.

i think it is somewhat good to wrestle with this. i think it prods us into never settling for less than God's will and desire for us.  I think it always has us looking towards the Kingdom, and being readied for the prompting of His Spirit to move freely as He does, to not dig our feet into the dirt of resistance to change. not to say that i'm always eager to respond in such a way, but that it at least puts us in a position of anticipation of such a request.

what does this all mean?

i'm not really sure.  there are just days like today that i long to put my feet in the sand of a new shore, in the dirt of a new desert, in the wind of a new meadow, and i am reminded of how we are created for an eternal kingdom in glory with our Father.  i guess expectant hope towards something new and something more is born with us in our soul.