Sunday, March 4, 2012

an enigmatic love

God is WRECKING me with His love right now! seriously! i have tears in my eyes in Panera, and I would write in my journal, but its so much quicker to type!

it may be the fact that i had a skinny-soy-hazlenut-mocha.  and a mountain dew. and a half. so i guess it could  be the caffeine surging through my veins.  but really, truly, i think it is just a revelation of His love! the more and more we declare it out loud and to others, the more it begins to sink into our thick skulls and skins!

today has been equivalent to a week-long vacation in terms of what it has done for my heart and soul.  In fact, this might become a sunday tradition.  or the only thing i do over the few days of spring break i will be in town.  i might not be able to afford this as a daily habit (why are lattes so expensive? and extra for soy? seesh!)  but i have read the word, recounted His faithfulness through my own writings and reflections, listened to a sermon from 5 years ago, and spoke with a close friend from Haiti, recounting God's love for her and for His children as a whole! His relentless, unending, unyielding, unconditional love!  He is SO good!  He loves us, and chooses us, and wants us!  He does not need us, not in the slightest! YET, He desires us!  ALL of us!  Even the broken little bits of our past and our hurt, due to our own neglect and sin.  The crazy thing is that He wants to use all of that for His glory even! Seriously, could we serve a more awesome God?!

i'm feeling His heart, even just the smallest portion of it that would not allow me to collapse underneath the weight of compassion in His love, for humanity.  for His children.  for this fallen world.  for His broken daughters and sons.  I am feeling the love that emanates from His very presence!  His love that desires wholeness and peace and redemption for His children!  His love that washes away every stain from sin, heals every wound, covers every ounce of pain, and renews every heavy heart!  His love that is over and under and through!

He ignites our heart with a passion for the things He calls us to, and for the things that He cares deeply about!  I can only compare this human emotion to true, pure, undefiled love.  a love for someone that causes us to in turn love the things they love.  a love that gives vibrancy to every breath, involuntary submission to every smile, intensity behind every heart beat.  this love is an eternal promise, superior to every form of earthly love, even within a marriage that God has ordained and created us for.

this heavenly love gives hope.  breathes faith.  seeks purity and passion.  God, you are so, so good!  Your love endures FOREVER!  how exciting is that!

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